I Share Love to You, Not A Negative Thing

*nowplaying: Panic! At The Disco – Always*

Know what, han? Saking maksimalnya sayangku ke kamu ngejadiin aku nggak sadar kalo kamu itu cewek. Aku nggak pernah mikir segimana manisnya kamu, segimana seksinya kamu atau apaanlah yg mikirnya cuman pake nafsu. Karena semua birahiku itu ketutup rasa sayang yg berlebihan buat kamu. Jadinya kayak 50% kasih sayang sana 50% cinta. Tanpa nafsu. Nggak tau apa kamu beneran nggak pernah suka sama aku apa gimana tapi 1 yg aku yakinin beneran. You feel it too, you feel the love that I’d share to you. However you said that you don’t ever like me or anything, but I know that. Your eyes, your body languages never tell lies. And I can see it, deeply. Setiap kamu ngeliat aku di sekolah kayak ada perasaan kamu mikir gini, “Bisa-bisanya aku bohongin hatiku sendiri..” Yap, sok tau emang. Aku emang nggak bisa baca pikiran orang tapi aku yakinin itu. Kamu ngerasain “sesuatu” yg aku bagi ke kamu. Cinta (bukan d’Bajinguk) dan kasih sayang.

So what should I do now? Lie to my heart? Just like you? Nope. I will keep my love for you until I found another better girl outside there. Thus, share it with her too. But, if I don’t find another better girl I prefer just take my love for you to the deepest and darkest place in my heart. Then lock it inside a box so no one can see it.

Keep this words, “If you make a boy falling in love to you, you make him will never ever forget you too. That’s a normal packet.” Quote ini bener banget. Soalnya aku nggak bakalan pernah ngelupain kamu. Karena, aku nggak bisa. Karena, perasaanku udah nyelem kedaleman. Because, I fell in love to you at the first sight. Damn, it’s so hard to explain my feel to you. Emm.. here, in short “I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW”. That’s it.

I hope.. Nope, my deepest heart’s do hope that you’ll read this one. So you can understand my feel, I wrote all the truth here. No lies.

NB: I know you hard to understand English haha, joking. Maybe you can ask your friends to translate this by the way.

It's Really Hard to Forget You

I keep on trying to forget you. I'm trying, trying all the best but I can't. I'm trying to get away from you but it's just really hard, we're studying at the same school. I can't stop my love for you. My feel is just too deep for you, more than you will ever know. I don't know what I would like to write here, I think I just want to say thanks. Thanks for being chatty again to me, appreciate it so much. And thank you so much for gave me your charmful smile again. You know? I absolutely miss that so bad haha. And btw thanks again for make me smile a lot again. You made my day! Thank you!

Last Post for A Girl With Headkerchief

I love you no more now. Because I know love you with all my faith just wasting my time. So thanks for make me so happy for a moment even you've hurts me after all. Good bye, see you again in Hell.

10 Things That I'll Do to My Girlfriend:

1. Call you for only hear your voice.
2. I will be there if you're ask me, just ask me.
3. Love you with all faith that I had.
4. Damn, now I'm a good guy. I will not see you such a porn star.
5. Make you smile, because I love the way you smiling.
6. I'll give space time for you, maybe for hanging out with your friends.
7. Try to be the best man for you, protecting you, keeping you and everything for you.
8. Staring at you every time.
9. Keeping my mind trusting you even I know you're lying.
10. Call for your name, then go disappear haha.

Middle Finger Up

So it's true,

IF THERE IS A BIG PLAN, YOU MUST READY TO FACE A BIG FAIL.

Fuck off.

It Might Blind Your Eyes, It Might Break Your Heart, It Will Swim on Your Veins.

*Sebenernya nggak ngerti maksud judul yg tak tulis sendiri*

Ya pokoknya cinta itu gitulah, sesuai judulnya aja. Kalo menurutku sendiri, serangan cinta lebih bahaya dari serangan ulet bulu/migrasi burung kuntul. Kalo kita diserang sama yg namanya “cinta”, kebanyakan kita (terutama ABG labil) bakalan lupa sama dunia. Kalo ulet bulu yg nyerang palingan cuman nempel di pohon gitu, nggak mungkin juga uletnya nempel di badan orang-orang. Kalo gitu bener serangan ulet bulu jadi lebih bahaya. Sebenernya kuntul migrasi bukan serangan tapi kalo mereka udah eek.. nah! Itu bahayanya. Jatuh cinta juga gitu, bisa nyerang siapa aja.

Bisa nyerang tukang bakso arema keliling, tante-tante diskotik, anak kecil, bahkan sejenis Boni juga bisa lho jatuh cinta.

Dan sekarang ini, aku lagi jatuh cinta..
Dan orang yang bikin aku ngepost ini adalah cewek ini,

Yak kalo aku tiba-tiba aku jadi cah cinta gitu kalian bisa salahin dia.

Aku mungkin udah suka sama dia sejak pertama liat di parkiran sekolah. Liat dia tu kayak "Wow!", bukan "Anjrit, ayu banget" atau "Weh, kuwi sing wingi ngutang karo aku". But my "Wow" is really mean more than a "Wow". I can't imagine how I could feel this way. But when I am around her, I feel like "Fuck this cruel world, I want her". Aku emang jarang banget bisa suka sama orang dengan sekali liat. But, I did.

Dan akhirnya beberapa hari setelah itu aku nekat ngajak dia kenalan.. *Nyetel lagu Your Biggest Fan-nya Never Shout Never*

Tau refleknya dia gimana pas aku nyodorin tangan buat ngajak kenalan? Udahlah nggak usah diceritain, kalo diinget-inget malah bikin mangkel ati. Pokoknya rasanya tu kayak mau ngajak kenalan cewek trus dicuekin. Sakit. Banget. Pas pulang tiba-tiba aku jadi pengen nggado obat nyamuk bakar. Beberapa hari abis itu aku jadi pendiem di kelas. Yap, kalian bisa salahin dia. Sampe temen sekelas pada bingung sendiri aku kenapa. Yang biasanya duduk 5 menit aja hawanya minta berdiri eh ini malah cuman diem goblok sambil tiduran di meja. Kepikiran dia terus, plongah-plongoh, yaa jadi galau gitu. Yap, so @Poconggg is true,

"People become alay, norak or what ever they are when they're falling in love.."

Yes, we do Conggg..

Dan sekarang kita udah malah hampir jadian. Udah tinggal nembak aja. Ketemuan, ngobrol dikit, dor! Udah, kita jadian. Rencananya sih entar pas di sekolah. Semoga lancar yaa.

Oke pas udah jadian aku bakalan ngepost lagi, see ya in the next post. Cheer! #TEAMUP